Help Stop The Pain

No matter where you are in your life, remember, if you need to make any changes, you can. Just take one step at a time. If someone is not there for you, find someone else! All of us, at times, need someone to help us with encouragement, prayers, and sometimes, just to sit quietly and give you a hug. Carter gives great hugs, unfortunately, they weren't enough for Heather, in her mind. No matter what we said, she still didn't believe that there was any hope. There is always hope! We would have done anything for her. But do you know what? If you think there is no hope, there is someone there with you that would do anything to keep you with them! Remember that! My book is starting to take off. Each new read is a little hard on me because I do value my privacy, but lives that can be saved are worth more than any privacy issues I may have. Each day we hear more stories, lives lost, but more important, we hear stories of lives saved! Together, we can work together to get more sa

There is one thing that I can be sure of. Some days I can sleep and some days, I can just toss and turn and hope that I will eventually pass out for a couple of hours before it's time to get up. Just after we lost Heather, sleep was an impossibility. Before long, I taught myself that I could hibernate. As long as I got to sleep early, I could crash for the night and close my mind to the pain I was feeling. I was doing pretty well with that. Granted, it's not much of a life, but hey, at least I wasn't a walking zombie anymore. It's now 6 months later and I am, unfortunately, back into the lack of sleep mode. I toss, I turn, it doesn't matter. I glance at the clock now and then and the time just keeps creeping by. Most nights, I get a few hours of sleep before the sun is up and my grandson is awake. Is this normal? I have no idea, but I do miss the hours of sleep where I could hide from the pain. Is part of this because I just released my book on the web? Possibl

Life is hard. I could give up anytime and just crawl into a hole and try to cry through the rest of my life. Or ... I can take this pain and try to use it for good. We chose for good. Not all suicides are recorded as suicides. Some are recorded as overdoses. Some accidents. Some unknown causes. It doesn't matter how it's recorded. It just matters that someone we love is gone ... forever. Everyone knows someone that has lost someone close to them. 1 in 4 suffer from mental illness so chances are, if you don't know someone right now, you will. That's why it is so important to us to share. We want to do everything in our power to prevent as many deaths as possible. The first thing I want to share with you is that I published my book. No, it's not a New York Times Bestseller, but I truly hope you all read it and share it with as many as possible. No, it doesn't have a happy ending. My daughter is dead. The pain I feel everyday is real. You can find the link to

Imagine that those around us stay with us. No more suicide. No more drug abuse. One of the most common things to affect those we love is mental illness. 1 in 4 suffer and that is way too much. We need to wake up and help those around us, before they are no longer around us. Amy helped us create a GoFundMe page to help raise funds to help raise awareness. We have a domain name in mind and we have the layout to start making magnets for distribution, we are just lacking some funds. The more we can raise, the more we can share, so please, donate what you can. Every little bit adds up and can help so many. Imagine walking through life and seeing the information shared to everyone. Sharing the National Suicide Prevention Hotline 1-800-273-TALK (8255) and the Crisis Text Line (Text START to 741-741) is free to all and can help save a life. These numbers need to be made known to everyone. We lost Heather to suicide on October 26, 2015. She admitted that she just couldn't talk to an